Well, I didn't get the news I was hoping for from the oncologist. The type of cancer I had, triple negative and aggressive, warrants taking a further step to eradicate any stray cells. So, I will begin chemotherapy on July 1st—six treatments, with three weeks between each one.
My first
reaction was anger. After all, this just stinks. There were so many things I
wanted to do this summer and fall—travel, visit family, hike some trails. Taking
chemotherapy wasn’t one of them—most definitely.
I don’t want
to do this. I really, really don’t want to do this.
No one does.
Fatigue will be a factor, along with low blood counts. My hair will be a total
loss. And, of course, there are a myriad of uncommon side effects that a
scattered few experience.
But I want
to live. So I will do what I have to do with as much courage and faith and
dignity as I can muster up.
Thankfully,
God is helping me see some positives. I have a doctor with many years of
experience and a heart of compassion for his patients. The chemo drugs that he
chose seldom cause nausea. I have a husband who loves me and will do everything
he possibly can to help me through this. The love and support of my family and
friends brings a smile to my face and tears to my eyes. The prayer warriors
coming along side of me are a mighty army that stretches far and wide. And,
Jesus is holding my hand as He walks this road with me. I am not alone.
I don’t want
to do this, but, with God’s help, I am.
Your continued
prayers are appreciated.
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.”
Isaiah 43:2
Blessings!
Pam©2015 Pamela D. Williams
